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Juhu. Today  (7th January 2010) was the first day in this new year, where I woke up, went outside and felt so wonderful good.

For your Information, on the 3rd of January 2010 I thought about to break up with my boyfriend,because he didn’t treat me respectful, how I should be treated.I did so much for this relationship, but after all he never did the same for us. And as fate would have it, I found out (15minutes before I met him) that he lied to me so brazenly. I don’t want to tell you everything in detail, you just have to know that it was inexcusable. I was so angry and showed him, in a calculating way, what I think about it and broke up.

It takes me 3 days to deal with this. I was full of anger, disappointed (because I knew that there was something wrong with that guy, but I didn’t listen to my mind) and suprised (never thought that someone, who’s grown up can act like a 15years old boy) at the same time.

(You think, just 3 days?! Well, that might be, but I’m studying medicine and at the trainings I’m dealing with critically ill people, sometimes death, too.  There are people with really, really bad and sad lifes. In comparison to there suffer and problems, my life is still fine ^^ I think, I get used to forget)

On Wednesday the 6th of January I felt better, but inside I still think just a little bit about it. But at the end of the day I said to myself… “enough”.

Today on the 7th of January:

At 9am my alarm clock rings.It was so cold and I drag myself out of the bed. Than I got myself a pair of tights, warm socks, a thick jeans, a t-shirt, a longsleeve and my warm cashmere pullover on (it was round about -4°C outside). I threw on a coat and left the appartment to take a walk. I went to the bakery and took a cappuccino to go, than I walked through the tree alley between the “main building” of the university of cologne and the Refectory ( it’s the dining hall for the students). It was so quiet and peaceful. Everything was covered by an even snow layer. I listened to the song “36°C by 2raumwohnung (Ipod) and took a deep breath! Than I started to sing and jump around (well, I was alone there ^^).I felt so free and perfectly happy. At that moment I know that whatever this year will bring, I will do well.